Hello family? How have you been?. I hope you have missed me as much as I have missed you. Its Been long since I wrote something in here. I have been super busy with school and work. But thank God I’m here now.
Even though I have a lot on my plate right now. God has been faithful through it all. Plus yay I passed my exams and I’m so grateful to God and so proud of myself . Because to be honest, I was sure I was going to fail atleast 4 papers.But I didn’t. God is good.
So lately I have been feeling so scared confused and inadequate. I have had constant episodes where I feel like I’m doubting my capabilities to accomplish what is ahead of me.
I have been wishing things were different and at some point I have had the urge to just quit and just go back to my comfort zone.
I don’t know if you guys ever have feelings like this or is it just me?. Well if you have had feelings like this before, don’t feel guilty about it. It only shows you are human. As long as you don’t allow those feelings and thoughts to guide you. Because if you do what those feelings want, it won’t be long before you start regretting.
In the midst of this feelings I have made a choice to trust in God more. Yes I don’t trust in myself and my capabilities, but I choose to trust in God on my behalf. I’m clinging onto his promises and on his covenant with me.
I’m choosing to trust that before he placed me on this path, he already had a table prepared for me. He placed everything i need inside of me to handle the challanges that comes with me being in this path.
Plus God is good and faithful guys because as I was in the midst of feeling this feelings the holy spirit reminded me of the children of israelite in the book of exodus. And in the back of my mind I heard this voice saying that;
“In moments like this all I have to do is be still and to keep moving forward because God himself will make a way for me..”
Just as the book exodus says
Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Then the Lord said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on. Raise your staff and stretch out your hand over the sea to divide the water so that the Israelites can go through the sea on dry ground.
Exodus 14:13-16 NIV
This is for someone who is feeling confused and scared, someone who is doubting their abilities just like I have. This is an assurance for us from the Lord. That he has our back only if we don’t quit only if we keep moving forward.
Just know you are where you are for a reason. It’s not a mistake. God is with you walking by your side making sure that you accomplish everything he has called you to.
I don’t know about you, but as for me I’m choosing to hang in there, I’m choosing to break all generational curses, and I will not allow fear to stop me because that’s from the enemy. For God did not give me the spirit of fear but of power, love and self control. I’m choosing to create a space for me, my children and my generation where we all win and nothing will stop us because God has already prepared a table for us. And it’s upto us to be still and to keep moving because the rest is in his hands.
Iam choosing to do it afraid.
So just like children of Israel. Be still and keep moving forward.