We all experience different seasons in our lives, and in every season God gifts us with sufficient grace to go through the season according to his will.
Whether it’s a joyful season, sad season or a difficult season we all have a role to play, we all have purpose as to why God placed us in that specific season.
And for this reason our focus should be in asking God who he wants us to become in each season we encounter.
As for me iam in the season where I believe that God is calling me to be an Esther of my generation. The challanges, mistakes , brokenness that I experienced as a young girl and a teen is where my purpose lie. To help other young women who have gone through the same or are currently going through the same to become better version of themselves through partnering with God.
I don’t know about you, but as for me my main aim right now is to walk in this purpose according to the guidance of the holyspirit.
Take a deep breath, and examine yourself, who do you think God is calling you to be in this very season? That’s your purpose. And as you examine yourself don’t limit God, because he’s able to use every detail of your life to bring glory to him. And when I say every detail of your life, I mean the good, the bad, the pain, the flaws and everything else.
As I work towards becoming the Esther of my generation. I will start re-reading the book of Esther, with the help of the holy spirit with an expectation that God will reveal to me hidden and secret things that I do not know that will help me walk in my purpose.
Don’t forget to leave a comment on who God is calling you to be in this season of your life.
Love you and God bless you.
For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish. Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” Esther 4:14 NKJV https://bible.com/bible/114/est.4.14.NKJV
For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them.” Matthew 18:20 NKJV https://bible.com/bible/114/mat.18.20.NKJV
Then I immediately remembered John 14: 13-14
And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask anything in My name, I will do it. John 14:13-14 NKJV https://bible.com/bible/114/jhn.14.13-14.NKJV
According to these two verses, Jesus has assured to give us or to be with us in anything we do or ask in his name.
In my previous encounter with this phrase, “In the name of Jesus” . I never gave it so much thought. Until recently, when it came to my attention that i had to ask God what it meant.
It was revealed to me that, “anything we do/ ask in the name of Jesus”
Its ” anything that we indulge in or anything we ask as children of God that has the motive/intention of bringing glory and honor to the name of Jesus and impacting the kingdom of God“.
Jesus will therefore make it his agenda or his business to making sure that it is fulfilled, so that the father will get his glory through the son, Jesus christ.
It’s therefore more of our intentions and motives behind doing whatever we want to do, if our motive is to bring glory and honour to God through his son Jesus christ and create impact in the kingdom, then be rest assured that Jesus will make sure he sees us through whatever it is or he will make sure we get whatever it is we are asking from him..
Hey Family! How are you? As for me I’m doing better and better each day. That doesn’t mean I’m not experiencing tests here and there, i am!
But throughout my spiritual journey since 2020, I have learnt to totally trust in God. So nothing bothers me anymore. Not to boast, but just to boast in the Lord, because of who he is, his love, his goodness, his intentions and his perfect plan for us.
So in February, as I was sitting for my exams, the holy spirit revealed something really beautiful to me.
Yes, because most of the times, I surrender my will to God and allow the holyspirit be in control, while I take the passenger seat. This has helped me alot to be in alignment and also be alert so as to hear from God when he’s speaking to me in different or through different ways.
I was able to realise how easy it is to say, “God get the glory out of my life, wherever you take me I will go as long as you get the glory.”
Then when things doesn’t go our way we get frustrated and start thinking that God is distant or God doesn’t care. We tend to forget who God really is, because we are thinking from a place of frustration which tend to block us from the truth about who God is.
How did I come up with this?
So it was on a Monday evening, I had just finished my first two papers. As usual I always come home, take a shower then sleep for around 3 hours before I wake up to study for my following day papers. That has always been my routine whether I have an exam or not. Because If I don’t get that three hour sleep I won’t be productive.
That evening I took my shower as usual, jumped into my bed. For some reason I could not sleep. I tried for one whole hour, there was no sign of sleep near my eyes or brain. Which was unlike me, because I usually sleep in the first 15 minutes after entering my bed.
I got really frustrated because I didn’t know how I was going to manage studying for two papers, bearing in mind I had not rested. I started complaining, while pleading with God to just give me even 30 minutes sleep because I needed it, bearing in mind I was really exhausted, but to no avail.
I had to force my mind to study that night regardless. Well by the special grace of God, I managed to study for four hours with a thirty minute break in between. You can’t even imagine what happened after that?
Immediately I went to bed, because I was super exhausted, there was a blackout the whole of that night till midday the following day.
Here I thought God was interrupting my plans and my routines. I got upset and frustrated. But God was interrupting my plans for me and not against me. You can Imagine how grateful I was to God for keeping me from sleeping when I wanted to. I gave him praise and thanked him.
Most of the time, we forget that our God is a good God no matter what. Even when things seem to go upside down, he is still a good God who loves us and has good plans for us, even when what we are going through at the moment seem to contradict . He’s a God who sees things that we cannot see, he knows the end before the beginning.
Let’s learn to trust and praise him even in our moments of uncertainty. Let’s learn to trust his leadership over our lives, even when we don’t understand what he’s doing.
So, whenever you find yourself feeling frustrated because things are not going the way you expected them to go, I want you to take a deep breath, try to stay calm and focus on the goodness of God. Remind yourself that he is for you and not against you, even when your current circumstance says other wise.
Hello family? How have you been?. I hope you have missed me as much as I have missed you. Its Been long since I wrote something in here. I have been super busy with school and work. But thank God I’m here now.
Even though I have a lot on my plate right now. God has been faithful through it all. Plus yay I passed my exams and I’m so grateful to God and so proud of myself . Because to be honest, I was sure I was going to fail atleast 4 papers.But I didn’t. God is good.
So lately I have been feeling so scared confused and inadequate. I have had constant episodes where I feel like I’m doubting my capabilities to accomplish what is ahead of me.
I have been wishing things were different and at some point I have had the urge to just quit and just go back to my comfort zone.
I don’t know if you guys ever have feelings like this or is it just me?. Well if you have had feelings like this before, don’t feel guilty about it. It only shows you are human. As long as you don’t allow those feelings and thoughts to guide you. Because if you do what those feelings want, it won’t be long before you start regretting.
In the midst of this feelings I have made a choice to trust in God more. Yes I don’t trust in myself and my capabilities, but I choose to trust in God on my behalf. I’m clinging onto his promises and on his covenant with me.
I’m choosing to trust that before he placed me on this path, he already had a table prepared for me. He placed everything i need inside of me to handle the challanges that comes with me being in this path.
Plus God is good and faithful guys because as I was in the midst of feeling this feelings the holy spirit reminded me of the children of israelite in the book of exodus. And in the back of my mind I heard this voice saying that;
“In moments like this all I have to do is be still and to keep moving forward because God himself will make a way for me..”
Just as the book exodus says
Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Then the Lord said to Moses, “Why are you crying out to me? Tell the Israelites to move on. Raise your staff and stretch out your hand over the sea to divide the water so that the Israelites can go through the sea on dry ground. Exodus 14:13-16 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/exo.14.13-16.NIV
This is for someone who is feeling confused and scared, someone who is doubting their abilities just like I have. This is an assurance for us from the Lord. That he has our back only if we don’t quit only if we keep moving forward.
Just know you are where you are for a reason. It’s not a mistake. God is with you walking by your side making sure that you accomplish everything he has called you to.
I don’t know about you, but as for me I’m choosing to hang in there, I’m choosing to break all generational curses, and I will not allow fear to stop me because that’s from the enemy. For God did not give me the spirit of fear but of power, love and self control. I’m choosing to create a space for me, my children and my generation where we all win and nothing will stop us because God has already prepared a table for us. And it’s upto us to be still and to keep moving because the rest is in his hands.
Iam choosing to do it afraid.
So just like children of Israel. Be still and keep moving forward.
So I want to share with you a little story, on how God revealed something beautiful to me last weekend when I was in the salon.
Recently I have been contemplating between keeping my hair and cutting it down, reason being maintaining my hair was expensive for me, in terms of time, because after every two weeks I had to change my hair style. And with my schedule right now I can’t afford to go to the salon and spent a whole 4 hours there. Like those four hours are so precious to me in the season that iam in.
So a friend of mine suggested that I do dreadlocks, I don’t know whether to call it “man made or temporary dread locks” where by you don’t let it lock, after a period of time you get it out and redo it again, so that I don’t end up missing my long hair in the long run.
My other colleague referred to me someone who was an expert in it, and from how she had done hers, it was so neat and perfect, so I went and did mine too to the same person, because I had seen the evidence of her work on my colleague’s head and the styling too was perfect, for our kind of profession or should I say career.
While this lady was doing my hair, I didn’t trust the process, at the back of my mind I knew she knew what she was doing because she was an expert, and I had seen some few examples of what she had done. But I doubted for a second if she really new what she was doing, because I thought she was supposed to start applying the wax while rotating it immediately , but that was not the case because waxing came in later. And not forgetting, the first part of making this dreadlocks really looked messy that I really doubted despite knowing the truth. The truth of the fact that she knew what she was doing.
Deep down I was battling inside my heart whether to ask her about the wax thing or not.
Then in the midst of my battle I heard a voice in the back of my mind saying, “Effy you have to trust the process, she knows what she’s doing” “you have to trust her, because she’s been doing this and this is not her first time.” And immediately I remembered how she did my friends hair, so I stayed calm, and went with the flow.
So immediately I started smiling because my spirit was open and I started to think, is this not what we do all the time with God? We were created by God, he knows us, he knows our destiny, he is the Potter, and he is in the business of preparing us so that his purpose in our lives will be accomplished in a perfect way that will bring glory to him.
Or even sometimes God shows or gives us a promise, he gives us a clear vision of how the end is going to be, but most of the time he doesn’t show us how we are going to get there, he leaves that to be a mystery so that we can develop a trusting relationship with him.
In between, there will be alot of twist and turns, pain, joy, failure, our spirit will be down cast, and sometimes we will get to a point where we question the promises of God over our lives, sometime we develop doubt, and even think to ourself does God really know what he’s doing?
And other times we will want to rush things and manipulate it so that we may get where God showed us.
We forget that God is faithful. God has never broken a promise, we have seen it since he created the world of how faithful he is, he is a promise keeper, we have also seen his faithfulness around us, it may be in our friends lives or even our family members, his faithfulness is so evident. And yet when things get messy, during our twist and turns we doubt him.
Just like I did at some point in the salon, despite seeing the salonist work I still had doubt in my heart , when she was in the process of making the dreadlocks.
Just because the process is painful, messy and lonely, doesn’t mean that God doesn’t know what he is doing, doesn’t mean that God has forgotten his promises. Those painful moments, are ways of God making sure that everything turns out in a way that only he, will receive the glory, in a way that will encourage and inspire someone else going through the same to trust in God.
” Just as its said before gold becomes Gold it has to go through the fire.”
This painful and messy road to your promise is only God preparing you to what is ahead of you, God doesn’t want you to get there weak, he wants to make sure you get there strong enough to handle everything that comes with your blessings.
I don’t know what God promised you, it may look different from what you are experiencing right now, but I want you to trust your potter, believe that he knows what he’s doing, believe that he will never allow you to fall apart in the process of moulding you, as long as you keep holding on to him, he will make sure everything works out for the best.
Can you imagine the excitement I had when the salonist finished styling my dreadlocks and I saw how beautiful it was, it was soo beautiful that I didn’t remember how bad it looked when she started, and right there I trusted her enough ,to the point where I told myself I will always come to her for repair.
It’s the same thing with God, when it’s all done, we will be so excited praising his name that we forgot how painful the process was and we will learn to trust him more.
I pray this encourages you to trust in God more even when things don’t add up in our life. It’s very important to exercise patience endurance and trust, I know sometimes we get impatient and we want the easy way out, we want shortcuts and to manipulate things to work in our favour.
But don’t forget Genesis chapter 25 to 27 onwards when God promised Rebecca about his smaller son becoming great and his big son serving the smaller one Jacob.
But when it came time for Isaac to bless Esau,Rebecca manipulated her way into letting Jacob receive Esau’s blessings. When all she had to do was to trust that God will fullfil his words in his own way at his own time. Even though Jacob received the blessings, there was a lot of consequences that followed him there after.
For instance when he was looking for a wife, he worked for seven years and he was brought the wrong wife, so he had to work for more 7 years to get the wife he loved. We can go on and on on how his one lie of manipulating things and lying to his father affected his life.
I don’t know about you, but as for me I will hang in there, I will choose to trust and wait upon the Lord, even when my faith is failing me, when things gets tough I will still choose to hold on to his promises. Because I believe I serve a God who makes everything beautiful at his perfect time.
And since its all about God and the kingdoms business, I will choose to wait on God so that my story will be a reason why someone somewhere trust that God will pull through for them as they did for me.
I finally got time to write something in here. It has taken long because I’m currently busy, and I must admit sometimes I feel overwhelmed with the work I have. And it’s going to be so for 3 concecutive months.
I hope you have been fine, holding on to Jesus because he’s all we’ve got and he’s all we need.
As for me I have been holding on to him so tight, and this season has been the season of intentionality for me, being intentional with what I want in my space, being intentional with my relationship with God, just being intentional with everything, including protecting my peace of mind.
It has also been a journey for me where I chose to quit or leave it all behind, behaviors and things I have been holding on for so long despite knowing that they don’t align with God’s will for my life.
Despite the day to day challanges I have been experiencing, I refuse to let myself believe less in God, or go back to this behaviors. I still believe in his promises and his love for me, because truth be told I’m in the season where my world is crushing, and everything is falling apart, and I can’t fix anything because I don’t know how or even where to start from
Even at that I refused to allow these situations define me, I give it all to God. I am in this season where I have been asking God to work in me, to work in my endurence, my patience, my humility and my love for others. It’s called spiritual and soul growth. And it’s been a tough journey for me.
Tough why? Because there are days I have been pushed to the wall, and Im like God I don’t want it anymore, just take this pain away, i can call it complaining mode, and yes I’m guilty of that some days. And there are days I have been like yes God whatever it takes to build and mould me do it Lord. Am all in.
Why I’m I doing this? Why I’m I partnering with God for this growth? because there are things I’m praying and trusting God for in my life, there are things I’m manifesting for my life, things to do with who God created me to be, things to do with the vision God has given me for the future and for his kingdom, and trust me I don’t want any of it if I’m still holding on to the old mindset and old self.
This is simply because most of the times God has blessed me with things and opportunities in the past, my mindset ,my character and my old self caused everything to crush and crumble down. Most of the times I have been toxic to my opened doors, I have taken alot of things for granted. And this is because I lacked things like patience, endurence, wisdom and the list can go on and on.
I pray this helps you out, as you are trusting God for certain things in your life, I hope you ask your self this question,
“What if this things I’m trusting God for comes now? Will I be ready to steer them in the direction that will bring glory to God?”
If yes then keep trusting God and when the time is right God will open this doors for you.
If no, then it’s time to shift your prayers, from God give me this and that to God work in me until I’m ready to be used for your kingdom.
It’s my prayer for you that you make your life intentional in everything that you do. It’s not easy, but we have to allow the holy spirit take the lead. It’s also important to push ourself by partnering with God. We cannot submit to the flesh and it’s desires…but let us be transformed through the renewal of our mind.
Most of the time we are afraid to show up and speak up about our relationship with God because we think we are not qualified enough or we are not holy enough to do so, and we sometimes even tend to judge those who are loud about their faith.
We forget that no one is perfect and God knows that, and whatever we are doing, we are doing not because of who we are but because of who God is. The word tells us God is loving; his love endures forever , he’s merciful and his mercies are new every morning. That when we go to him with a humble and a genuine repetant heart he’s just enough to forgive us. And he’s always ready and willing to partner and work with us, until we become that which he created us to become.
That being said, Did you know that God can still use us to mentor others as he works in us at the same time? Like we don’t need to be perfect to create a difference in someone else life.
This is because growth, change and transformation are things that dont stop taking place in our lives as long as we align ourselves with his will.
We can still share and tell our story about how we are growing in the Lord to bring change and transformation in the understanding of those who are trying to rise up and walk in the same journey of knowing and getting deeper with God
And we can do so authentically; from a place of truth and honor. From a place that will glorify God.
And this can only happen when we allow God to mould us, to create in us a pure heart, to give us a spirit of sincerity and truth, to fill our mind with his wisdom and to give us a humble spirit and rebuild the walls of our life. #psalms51
The truth is, this doesn’t happen overnight but it happens as long as we continue to seek God without ceasing. God is faithful and he will continue to show up and bring the transformation that is necessary for us to be who he intended us to be when he created us.
It’s time to stop seeing yourself as not good enough or as not qualified enough, because God has already approved you and seen you as enough,
Just as John 15: 16 says
You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. John 15:16 NIV https://john.bible/john-15-16
So stop shrinking to fit in, and start showing up, and take position to become the best you can in this season that you are planted in. Let nothing stop you.
while you are waiting to be qualified someone else is trusting God with her less qualified version by showing up and taking position.
Do you remember the story of the three servants in our last blog?
I don’t know why the Holy spirit is revealing this message in bits, like it’s the same thing but in different ways. All glory to God.
And I strongly believe that this season God is calling us to bloom where we are. To look deep and beyond the normal, to look deep in the little things, that’s where we will find our purpose and the beauty of God.
Because the beauty of God is found every where and in every season of our lives. We have something to rejoice about, to be grateful for and to give irregardless of the season we are in.
God is calling on us to take position wherever he has planted us, to show up and to stop shrinking ourself so that we can fit in, but to stand out and become that which he has intended us to be in the season that we are in.
In that space you are in, in that position you are in or should I say where God has planted you right now, you can still serve God by being of service to those that God has placed around you. Not forgetting that there’s always something to give.
What do I mean? I simply mean you can bloom right now and right here. You can bloom in your obedience, you can bloom in becoming that which God has ordained you to become in this very season. And that will only happen when you choose to stand out and walk in obedience and utilize every opportunity you have in this season.
I know sometimes we tell ourselves, if only I had more I could do more. But one thing you should always keep in mind is that God has given you just enough, for you and also for those he has placed around you.
In the book of Esther 4:14-16.
Mordecai remind Esther if she doesn’t take advantage of the opportunity she has to save the Jews from being destroyed, she and her father’s family will come to an end / die.
This also remind me of Mathew 25:14-30
the parable of the three servants. Each used well and multiplied whatever was entrusted to them by their master except one who gave an excuse as to why he didn’t multiply whatever was entrusted to him.
And verse 29 continue to say
For whoever has will be given more, and they will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what they have will be taken from them. And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’ Matthew 25:29-30 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/mat.25.29-30.NIV
Most of the time we are like the servant who gave an excuse. We complain and give excuses as to why we can’t do A B or C.
And we wonder why we don’t grow. This is because God tests as with the little we have first before blessing us with more.
Can we be obedient? Can we show up? Can we share the little we have? can we take position when we are required to? Can we share the little knowledge we have? Can we steward well that which is entrusted to us?
If you can’t be faithful in the little you won’t be faithful in plenty. And even the little you have will be taken away.
So today is my prayer that you will not shrink to fit in, but you will choose to stand out and serve those that God has placed around you, that you will be a good steward of his blessings upon your life and that you will not be afraid to show up and take position when you are required to.
So last year when I decided to go back to school just as I shared in my previous blog that it was a journey of unlearning what I thought I knew about me.
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I also realized that there is no limitations in what we can achieve as children of God.
And “I can’t” or “I’m not capable enough” is the limitation we set for our self. It’s not what God has set for us.
I want to remind us today, that there is a God given power inside of us. God has instilled his power, mercy and Grace that is just enough to tackle and handle everything we encounter and everything we set our mind to achieve.
Whole heatedly, commit all that you do in the Lord and he will be your strength in your weakest moments.
Stop complaining about what is lacking ‘here’ , because if it was necessary God would have placed it ‘here’
You have everything you need now to be whoever God has intended you to be in this season. Do your best and trust in the Lord!
And don’t forget the work that you put in today will determine your tomorrow. …..
There is a lot of blessings and joy that comes with contentment, that is embracing and appreciating your present irregardless.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 NIV https://bible.com/bible/111/php.4.6-7.NIV
Yes it is! Every season and moment we find ourselves in, is never a waste, it’s all necessary to get us where we are destined to be.. whether it’s a bad or a good season. It’s all important.
I know sometimes here, may be messy, here may feel painful and unfair, and even feel confused because we don’t know what to do or where to start. Neither don’t we know how we going to get over our pain and our disappointment or when we we are going to be cured of our illness. But we are here now.
So the best thing you can do here is to embrace it and trust God. When you feel you don’t like it here, maybe because of what you are going through. This is the time you need to draw more close to God than ever before, it’s NOT a time to feel sorry for your self and drown in self pity.
Because what you do with your here matters alot, and it will determine how you are going to rise up and get there; Where you have been ordained and destined to be, because as children of God we are destined/ordained/called for greater purpose, and that purpose will be revealed to us when we deny our self and dedicate our life in serving, honoring and partnering with God while we live a life of total surrender.
So instead of dwelling in self pity it’s time to draw more close to God, spend more time with him, read his word, meditate on it and pray, while you pray remember to thank him for here and ask for his wisdom to help you embrace and learn the lessons that are necessary in this season that you are in “here”. As you prepare and trust him for there; that is the next beautiful season of your life. And trust me you will need the here lessons when you are there.
Quit focusing more on the pain, because that’s what the enemy wants, for you to see reasons or find reasons to feel abandoned, alone and unloved, but we all know that’s a lie, just because we are going through a bad season doesn’t mean God has changed and doesn’t love us any more, God only allows what’s necessary for us as he prepares and mould us to be who he created us to be.
While you are here remember to always focus on God more and who he is. That he loves us, and nothing can change that. That he is so intentional with everything and our pain is not in vain.
Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in in the morning.
Psalms 30: 5
God bless you and give you strength as you embrace your here while you trust him for his greatness. Amen
Effy khamusali 